浮光

幾乎每天都會有資工的同學們來到工三上課，教室的整潔想必對大家一整天的心情影響很大。這學期我們這組的工作項目便是透過打掃工三的教室，來提升同學的心情，進而讓世界更美好。我們有兩間教室要打掃，有一間是我兩節課的教室，不過我剛好分到另外一間，我想為別人打掃才更符合服務學習的意義吧。

擦黑板、打板擦、掃地，這些瑣事雖然很單調，但卻是很重要的小事。我們掃著地，內心卻閃過許多想法。

記得有一次在打掃時，有個穿著清潔人員衣服的小姐問我們在做什麼。說明原委之後，她喃喃說著原來如此然後走掉了，不知她心中是怎麼想的呢？因為服務學習課來打掃的我們，和因為工作而來打掃的她，各自的心情又是如何？有時早晨來工三時會遇見打掃的小姐，她總是會向我道聲早安，每天的生活，也是從這些小事堆積起來的呢。

說起來，我們一開始在選擇工作項目時，其實連組員的臉都沒見過呢。可是透過 BBS 和MSN 一下子就聯絡上大家了。覺得現代科技真的能幫助我們完成更多事，幫助更多人。我們這組一致通過要打掃，冥冥之中，同家族的人也有了同樣的默契。

如果能有更多時間、更多金錢。我一定會想發明一個不用讓人掃地也可以維持清潔的方式。也許是自動清潔的機器人，也許是某種讓人不會留下垃圾的機制。一想到就覺得好興奮，大概是資工人的工程師性格的表現吧？

雖然有時可以充滿希望的前進，但有時，在夜深人靜的時候，也會開始懷疑，做了這些小事，世界是否真的會更美好一點？有時也會難過，覺得什麼都不再相信了。

可是總是要相信的，因為人要有夢才能前進，不是嗎？每每這樣提醒自己，不要忘了最單純的夢想，不要忘了最單純的自己。人和人之間，就是要開開心心的，這才是服務學習的真義。

好多年了，現在的你，是否長大了呢？

我一邊想著，一邊走著。這個地方好靜，真的已經好久沒有來過了。

前面，就是那道大門了吧。我鼓起勇氣走向前。

伸出手，握住門把。

我究竟期待看見什麼呢？你還在嗎？你變了嗎？

把門轉開，裡頭是一片黑。

你還在嗎？我還來得及找到你嗎？

四面環視，毫無動靜。

你還在嗎？拜託要在，拜託。

我閉上雙眼，一時還無法接受事實。就在這個時候，我聽見了，某種細碎的聲音。

是你嗎？是你嗎？

尋著聲音，終於看到了你。

那是你吧，一個人，縮在角落。

「你還好嗎？」我輕聲說道。

「已經沒關係了，我來看你了喔。」

他彷彿沒有聽見似的，繼續蜷縮著。

「你還好嗎？」

我輕輕拍了他的肩，他猛然轉了過來。

「對不起！！」淚眼汪汪。

「對不起，都是我不好。」

「已經沒事了」我回答。

「我真的，真的真的好想你喔。」

「真的，真的真的好難過喔。」

「每天每天，都好想見你喔。」

「已經過去了。」我說。

「對不起，我知道我應該不要再想你了才對。」

「對不起，可是我真的沒有辦法忘記你。」

「真的，真的沒有辦法，沒有辦法放棄喜歡你。」

「夠了...」

「對不起，我知道我什麼都不會。」

「對不起，都是我的錯。」

「不要說了。」

「約好了，不會打擾你的。」

「至少這點我一定會做到，我會很乖很乖，一定會。」

「就算哭了，也會一個人躲起來。」

「就算想念你，也不會讓你知道。」

「所以別擔心，真的，我真的沒事喔。」

「不要說了」

「或許有一天，」

「或許很久很久以後，」

「我可以把那句一直忍住不說的話說出來。」

「或許有一天，」

「我會找到勇氣，向你說再見，一定會的......」

「不要說了！！」

我用力關上了門，喘著氣，眼淚不爭氣的流了下來。

可惡，可惡，可惡。

為什麼我還是不夠堅強，還是沒辦法面對你。

我開始跑，一直跑，一直跑。

我不是不要你了，真的不是。

有一天我會回來帶你走的，約好了。

不管你有多任性，至少還有我，絕對不會放棄你。

真的，約好了。

我真的不知道怎麼安慰你，

可是，你不可以死掉喔。

有一天我會明白，怎麼擁抱你

那時候，我們就可以一起走了。

不明白，真的不明白。眼前的景象又是怎麼回事？

只見到，妳。

只見到，危險。

所以我向前。

「你又是誰？」

「我嗎？現在的我什麼也不是。可是我是一個好人喔，這就是為什麼我會在這裡。」

「所以，可不可以不要這樣？拜託。」

「哈哈哈哈，你在胡說什麼啊。」

「我是很天真，可以即使這世界再怎麼可怕，拚了命的，我都想保護我們的天真，這就是我的覺悟喔。」

所以……

……

「不要！！！！！」

「哈……哈……哈……嚇一跳嗎？最不可能保護妳的人竟然救了妳。」

「沒辦法，說好了啊。只要我還可以，我總是不會離開妳的。」

「你到底在說什麼啊！！？」

「唉，比如說如果我怕到無法前進，那就無法救妳了啊，但是我心中還是想和妳站在一起的嘛。」

也許一個人要先變得堅強才能保護人吧？

可是妳也明白，我一向不是個堅強的人。

如果我看起來有那麼一點堅強的話，一定是因為妳。

所以，明白嗎？

當妳離開我的時候，就是我離開妳的時候。

我沒有辦法拚了命的把妳緊緊抓住。

而且，一但妳走了，我可能就再也沒有那種勇氣，回到妳身邊了。

……

所以我一直明白，最後最後，我一定會是孤單一人的。

但是沒關係的，

因為妳還在。

所以，

可以幸福。

……

有的時候，真的好想好想脫離這個世界，好想好想，離開這個空間。那不是想死的衝動，只是想躲起來。

那不是單純的被傷害，但一絲絲的悲傷總是從心中湧上來。

是的，那並不是想毀掉自己。

看著許多荒謬的事情在眼前發生。

那是一種無力。

其實我很清楚，不斷地告訢自己。

「這是現實，這是真實的！」

其實我很清楚，我不該模糊眼前所見。

「我就只會這樣嗎？不要，不能停留！」

其實我很清楚，

那是一種逃避

「只是，只是如此嗎？不是說過要隨著心走嗎？」

在逃避與面對之間，在能又與勇氣之間，在預知與現實之間。

一點點的憤怒，也許只是自私。

我想，往前走，你也曾經有過嗎？

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一瞬間，我好像看清了什麼。

這一切其實都是我自己選擇的，不能安於現有嗎？沒有勇氣追尋嗎？

其實自己很清楚，跨出第一步之後一切都不會像想像那樣難。為什麼就是不敢前進呢？真可笑，說過的話依然言猶在耳。

也許該試著放手一搏。

這真是知易行難的最佳寫照。

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我想說，這不是我的錯。

沒錯，把事情搞砸不是我的錯。

委屈心情油然而生，在憤怒出現之前，也許我該看得更清楚一點，好像是，該不會是，「害怕」、「懦弱」的錯。

自己被那樣的感覺所欺負了，我是受害者，我感到無力與能力不足。

為什麼這樣的我要被責怪呢？為什麼？

等等，其實自己並沒替「別人」背黑鍋，因為那些不安與無力全來自自己。也許我真的錯了嗎？

這是陷阱！一切都是陷阱！我差一點就無視自己的脆弱而墮落，其實別人的責罵能讓我更看清自己，進而修正自己。

可是、為什麼？即使知道如此，我依然好悲傷，有著無法制止的怒氣？

也許試著，把所有的心情都告訴那人。

一隻鷹曾經來過，然後竟走了，再也沒有蹤影。

這發生在去年秋冬之交。那時學校正舉辦社團展覽，走在校區裡東張西望的我，突地被學姊硬拉了去。一時還搞不清狀況的我，手中竟多了一把弓。學姊把箭遞給了我，催促著我發箭。我望著遠方標靶，一顆心揪了起來。舉弓、放箭，享受著自以為的豪氣。咻──咻──咻──三箭過去，卻無一著的。轉身想探問學姊的眼神，卻見她不知又從何處帶來一名男子。

他帶著無奈的笑容，似是和我一樣，被硬請了過來。我的弓不知何時被遞到了他手上。只見他舉起弓，而在他放箭的一瞬間，我竟沒有去尋找他的箭，而是把眼神停在他身上，緊緊的被攫住。他的表情從無奈忽地轉為銳利，那眼神，緊緊攫住了我。

是鷹，我心中浮現了那樣的景象。鷹從高處掠下，迅疾的、緊緊的、毫不留情的攫住獵物。

我一直定在那裡呆了很久，所以當我回過神來，聽到學姊一直在喚著我，而那人已不在了。我四處張望，卻仍舊不見其蹤跡。我快步跑著，朝著每一個方向尋，卻一無所獲。今日究竟是個什麼樣的日子呢？

我加入射箭社，我在人群中尋找。然而我再也沒見過他。孤傲的鷹畢竟還是去了自己的世界，飛翔於天地之間。

雨滴把景色串成了一片白，雨聲、談話聲、鍋碗碰撞聲，聲聲清晰，然而感覺卻很寧靜，也許這樣的場景總讓人聯想平靜，又或許，真正寧靜的是這樣的心境呢？

在微冷的雨天，和家人一起坐在一間小小的店裡，看著雨時，喝下一口暖暖的熱湯，心也暖了起來。一想到小吃，便嗅到了古早味，而那些場景也浮上心頭。是來自古老的記憶，還是奇異的幻想？

也許這也是一種鄉愁，懷念過去單純而原始的風情。每吃一口，都是在品嘗思念，思念那寧靜平和的心境。那是我的故鄉，我的心靈一直渴望重回的故鄉。可那思念，終究是綿綿長長，卻也永遠尋不到回去的路，只能遠遠的注視著。

一道道菜，成了沒有終點的地圖。一再讓我更加接近原鄉，卻無法到達。它代表著歷史的、文化的、我的過去。品嘗著思念，品嘗古早味，我的懷念永不終止。

If I had witchcraft, I would try to end famine by making food available to those in need. However, I would not simply give them food, for they would not know what to do if I lost my power. First, I would equip them with knowledge my magic. So even those in developing countries would have ability to change their own destiny. Secondly, I would build essential public utilities for them. In this way, their living qualities would be improved. Lastly, I would solve all pollution and other environmental problems and teach people not to damage our planet again.

If I had witchcraft, I wold help scientists learn this world more easily. Fist, I wold create a special space in which scientists could conduct any experiments faster. Also, they would not have to worry about causing dangerous accidents, because whatever happens in this space would not damage our world. Secondly, I would devise a method to travel into outer space without any cost. So we could get precious information more easily. Lastly, I would create a DNA database, in which even the extincted animals' DNA code would be stored. With my witchcraft, I believe the world would get better more quickly.

How excited I was when Lisa, my good friend said that she would like to go out with me last week! When the appointed day came, I went out very early because I didn't want to let her wait for me. It was cold outside, but my heart was warm. She hadn't arrived when I got to the park, so I sat down on a bench and waited happily for her. As time went by, I started to wonder if she had gotten in some troubles, since it was almost an hour later than the time we had arranged to meet. I called her by cell phone and was surprised when she told me that it was the next week that we would go out together. "It's my fault." I told her. "I must have confused the time!" Tears welled up in my eyes.

She apologized to me afterwards, but that made me even sadder. I didn't wan to make her worried. She talked with me and tried to cheer me up. I shared my feelings with her and told her not to feel sorry. Our relationship became stronger after this event. And I have learned that I should make a phone call to check before I go out with anyone. I am so lucky to have a friend who is so understanding.

Nicole was enjoying the barbecue with her friend beside the river. They chatted happily, and feasted on the delicious food. Then, her friend told her a story which was very humorous. Nicole laughed loudly and she shook her legs so wildly that one of her shoes was thrown into the air and ended up in the river. She couldn't help but laugh more happily. "I wall get it back." said she. "Wait here."

Laughing, Nicole walked slowly to the river. As she considered about what to do, she suddenly stumbled upon a stone and fell into the river. She felt her body was wet through, and the water was very cold. Struggling, she saw her friend jump into the water, trying to save her. But later, they both laughed again. The river was not very deep, and they could actually stand in it.

Talent shows provide people with the opportunity to show themselves. Now one who has great talents doesn't have to worry about how to become a star anymore. While a talent show makes it easy for us to be stars, it also gives the audience the power to decide who will be popular. It does bring big changes to the entertainment industry. We can see these people learn and grow. It is interesting to know what a star was like before he becomes a star.

Anyone can be famous if he works hard. Those who have their own value will never be ignored. Talent shows give everyone an equal opportunity and inspire us to follow our dreams and to express ourselves. It is most exciting when you see your friend on the show. I like these talent shows, especially because they bring stars closer to us.

Bob was taking a walk when he saw a man trying very hard to move a television onto his car. Bob was eager to help and asked the man if he needed any help. The man thanked him and they moved the television together. When they were done, the man thanked him again and drove away.

Suddenly, a group of people with a police officer showed up. They shouted at Bob and looked very angry. Before Bob figured out what had happened, they caught him. "Stop! What are you doing?" he complained. But the police officer didn't listen to him, and took Bob to the police office.

They said Bob stole their money and television. Bob explained that he just helped the man move the television and that he didn't know the man was a thief. After many days in jail, he was finally released. He decided that he would give a second thought before he helps anyone again.

故事發生在一所十分普通的學校裡，一位少年靜靜的看著手中的考卷，望著考卷上密密麻麻的紅字，他突然感到一股奇怪的迷惘。「你何必把自己搞成這樣？」一位高大的男老師生氣的說著：「我不懂，以前品學兼優的你，為何開始頂撞師長、不交作業，連成績都掉了那麼多。」被罵的少年緩緩的低下了頭：「我不知道，我只是覺得，我的生命應該不只是這樣，我想過點不一樣的生活。」

少年快步的走著，好像這樣就可以把一切的悲傷拋到腦後似的。不知走了多久，他猛然停了下來，無法抑制的流下了眼淚。他不懂，事情為何會發展成這樣？就在這個時候，他的後方傳來了叫聲：「大明！」他趕緊擦乾眼淚，迅速的轉了過來。映入眼廉的是人位衣著有點髒亂的少年，名叫小牛，是大明的同學。他走到大明面前，問道：「怎麼啦？心情不好？」「……」大明沉默不語。看著沉默的大明，小牛突然露出奇怪的笑容：「我有一種東西，可以讓你快樂似神仙喔！」大明疑惑地望著他說：「真的？」

很奇怪，以前聽到毐品總覺得那是那麼邪惡的東西，而此時卻好像完全沒關係一樣，「也許我真的該找些東西來麻痺自己的痛苦吧？」大明這麼想著。很快的，大明便上了癮，而在小牛持眾朋友的慫恿下，他也逐漸學會了打架鬧事，喝酒飆車。他學得很快，不久之後，他甚至開始販毐。而他吸毐的量也愈來愈大。

事情一發不可收拾，大明很快便離開了學校。一步步的，陷入了泥沼而無法自拔。「為何你這麼久沒去上學了？你是不是不打算讀書了？」大明的爸爸生氣的說著。大明也甘示弱的回答：「是，我的確不打算讀書了！學校根本沒有值得留戀的地方，在那裡，我只感到無盡的痛苦！」大明才剛說完，他爸就用力打了他一巴掌。大明驚訝的看著爸爸，一股怒氣湧上心頭，他別過頭，轉眼就要奪門而出。「你若有種出去，就不要再回來！我沒有你這種兒子！」他爸大聲的喊著，希望大明能回心轉意。大明停了下來，但就只是那麼一下。他還是走了，頭也不回的，踏入了無盡的黑暗。

事隔多年，大明仍在夜色的掩護下生存。一段電話鈴聲劃破了夜晚的寧靜，大明靜靜的看著電話，那個號碼，既陌生而熟悉，竟是來自從前的家裡。「快走吧！還有一個大交易在等著我們呢！」一名男子發聲。大明又看了看電話，露出了輕佻的微笑：「走吧。」

……

就那樣直直的站在那裡，大明盯著病宋上的父親發呆。他好痛恨自己，當初為何不接電話，他竟然就這樣錯過了見父親最後一面的機會。往事一件一件的浮上心頭，大明這才驚覺，這幾年來，他是麼的墮落。似乎每一件事都偏離了，最初的想法，並不是這樣子的。大明悔恨的想著：「要是當初不吸毐就好了。」淚水不禁滑了下來。

發生了那麼多事，為什麼現在才說呢？」媽媽對著大明說。大明聽到這句話，淚水再次奪眶而出：「對不起。」他媽緩緩的說著：「放心，一切都還可以再來，我會幫你的，我會幫你的。」

Mary was walking in the library, looking for books she wanted to borrow. Suddenly, she heard some one calling her form her back. "Is this your book?" said a boy, pointing at a book on the ground. "Yes." replied Mary. "I must have dropped accidentally. Thank you." She took the book, and the boy walked away.

Mary continued to look for books. When she found one, she came across the boy again, and he also wanted to borrow the same book. "I want to borrow this book for my homework." the boy said. Mary felt surprised, because she wanted to borrow it for the same reason. Actually, she found that they are in the same school and in the same class! "So we have been classmates for a year, and we don't even know each other!" said the boy.

They talked for a while and walked out of the library together. It was raining. But Mary did not bring an umbrella. So the boy took out his, and they walked together. Mary was very happy because she had made good friends with him and thy decided to do the homework together.

I always wanted to go mountain climbing when I was little. But neither of my parents were interested in it. A friend of mine once talked with me about her experiences of mountain climbing. I was fascinated. I kept asking her if she had more stories. Besides, I asked my mother if we could go mountain climbing. She said I was too young and she didn't know for sure if it was dangerous.

I had not asked my mother since then, but I kept thinking of it from time to time. One day, my friend said that she was going the climb the mountains. I asked her if I could go with her and she agreed. I was very happy. She told me what I should prepare beforehand and taught me many things. When we finally got to the mountain, I was so excited. The air was fresh and the scenery was impressive. It was not an easy task. I had to take a rest many times. But it was fun and I really enjoyed it. It was a dream that finally came true!

One day, Bob and his friends were hanging out at the river. The weather was fine and they were having fun. While his friends were chatting, Bob jumped into the river and swam happily. Actually, swimming was one of his favorite sports.

As he swam, he saw his friend, John, hugging his girlfriend. Bob couldn't help but start to think that it would have been great if he had have a girl friend, too. As he continued to imagine a girl kissing him in the river, he suddenly felt someone pulling him down the water by the leg. He was terrified. He called out "Help!" and struggled to break out, but he kept sinking. His friends tried to pull him out of the water, but it didn't work.

He cried out, "Please let me go! I did not mean to do that. I was just thinking. I can't be with you!" Strangely, he did not feel someone pulling him by the leg anymore. And his friends pulled him out of the water. But when his friends asked him what he meant by saying that, he refused to answer.